How did this become our badge of honour? I want to be able to say that I had a great day, a relaxing day, that I am organized and rarely feel overwhelmed. I want to say that there are enough hours in my day. That I have time to make proper meals, time for exercise, time to meet with friends, time to read a book, time to watch a movie, a documentary or a silly sitcom. I want to say it with pride because I actually do. I have been able to create a simple life that most days is balanced and fulfilling.
When I call my Mom (keep in mind that she is 96) and tell her what I have been up to, she says, ‘My you are a busy woman”. I want to explain that yes, I have a full schedule but I am doing things I truly enjoy and I have a life that is very satisfying. I know that she thinks being busy is very important or what I want her to say because that is what society dictates. I know that my mother always ridiculed people who napped so I never tell her about my naps. I love a nap…now that I am older and working much less….a delicious nap might last 2 hours….ok….2.5 hours. Why not? If I nap, I can stay up later and fill the time with one of my projects.
All this doesn’t mean that I don’t get busy, get tired, get stressed but when it does happen, I want to realize that this is not a state of being I admire. I am looking at ways to continue working and by that I mean continue working past the average retirement age. I want to work at things that bring me joy. I want to undercover my passions. I want to share them with others and earn my living doing just that.
I don’t think we need to wait until we are sixty to start this journey. It seems important to excavate, explore and dig deep to find your authentic self now – today. We all have one. I left Canada at 48 with a plan to travel for a year. I came home 2 years later….a radical activist and what felt like a very different person.
I wasn’t a different person– I had just uncovered another part of me that I had missed. It feels now like so much of all those personal discoveries are coming together – all my passions, all my interests, all my desires and yes, maybe all my dreams.
peace, joy and love